Dreams….

Dreams are little hints of life that sometimes be good or bad.

To me, they are stories of my life.

Some are very scary and some are very funny and truthful.

When I dream, its a long story, depending on how I fall asleep, is how it began.

I have dreams of lost relatives and friends, my job/career, and even my future.

To me they are guidelines that the lord puts in my head that guide me through things that i’m going through my life.

Certain things i go through during my day tends to overwhelm me.

So when I dream about it, it becomes clear and when I wake up it makes sense and I feel alright.

In dreams, a lot can get to you.

Some people say that the devil gets to them in there dreams.

That he tells them things to make them do horrible things to people.

It not that, in my opinion, people do things because they want to.

They use the devil as a crush. Witch is an excuse to do what they want with no consequence.

This world is all about dreams. Without dreams, there will be no progress on life.

There will be no communications, no transportation, and no jobs for people.

Without dreams, we will be lost.

Dreams can be your weakness and your strength.

Cherish your dreams and go for what you want.

My book, note its a rough draft….opinions are free lol

Introduction

….This is a story of a young man, that was born with a illness, never felt sorry for myself because of it. A story of one of gods creation, that kept fighting through life, and pushing forward in life. A passionate saga of going through a disease that’s rare in this world. A disease called hirchsprung’s.
Hirschsprung’s (HIRSH-sproongz) disease is a condition that affects the large intestine (colon) and causes problems with passing stool. The condition is present at birth (congenital) as a result of missing nerve cells in the muscles of the baby’s colon.
Also, about a loving mother that raised two boys as a single mom and doing the best she could to survive.

 

Chapter #1: “A new life”

My name is, Damon Taylor. I was born and raised in Baltimore, Maryland. Since I was born, I was always sick. I was diagnosed with hirchsprung’s disease and was admitted in the hospital for my first (3-months) of my new life. I was born prematurely by being born (2-months) early. My colon never developed while in the womb. I was born in Maryland General Hospital, but was taken to care of at University of Maryland Hospital. My wonderful doctor and surgeon, was Dr. Hill. He treated me til I was 18yrs old. He always treated me kind and explained things to me. For my first 3yrs., I had two major surgeries and two colostomy bags. At the age of 4, Dr. Hill reversed the colostomy and closed me up. I now can be a normal child. I had wonderful family and friends that loved me and always been there for me. I went to school and made alot of friends.
I think in middle school, is where I started noticing myself getting sick alot. I would have serve pain in my abdominal area and all around my stomach. It seemed like it was being stabbed several times and was on fire at the same time. I spent my time in and out of the hospital. One day it came to the decision, that another operation had to be done. Being a child, I was scared, but I knew my mother would be there when I woke up. Everytime I woke up from surgery, my mom would be right beside me. To me she was the most beautiful woman in the world. A few months passed and back to school I go. I went through middle school and was doing good. Until, around 7th grade. I had that serve pain again, so back to the hospital I go. I went through another operation. At this point, I had 4 surgeries on my stomach.
I use to look in the mirror and wonder, “Why is this happening to me?” My friends use to have sleepovers, but I wouldn’t go because of my sickness. You see, having hirchsprung’s makes a childs life hard. At night, you can’t control your bowls and you would make mistakes in the bed. I was embarrass because at night I would have to put pampers on before going to sleep. This lasted all the way til 12yrs old. For a pre-teen, thats not cool and you would be teased all your life. My depression started to become more often at this rate. So, I never went to any friends houses over night.
I was one of those kids that played in his room and watched cartoons all day. I was really into legos. My imagination was/and still til this day, through the roof. I would build the model and then two days later, tear it down and build my own creation. I also, played video games. My favorite was Sonic the Hedgehog and Super Mario Bros. I would play it til night to dawn. I guess it was my outlet towards my life.

Bless and positive thinking 

I’m sitting here thinking that I’m very bless to be alive.  By being premature when born and was diagnosed with hirshsprungs disease.  There’s a lot for me to be thankful for.  Being in the hospital all my life, going through 10 surgeries.  I realize that I am here for a reason. God put a lot of trials and tribulations in my path and I pulled through all of them.  

I live my life to the fullest as much as I can.  We never know when we are leaving this earth. I recently realized that I work too hard not to enjoy myself.  I promise to myself that I will start having fun like I used to. I have a lot of plans that I want to do before my time is up and I will do them.

Just remember that, for those that are sick, don’t let it stop you from doing the things you love to do. Bulldoze through it and have fun.

Relationship????

I have been in many relationships and still don’t understand why I can’t keep them.  Yes, I have my faults.  But everybody does.  I treat women really good.  I’ll spoil you like a queen and will open up to you 100%. 

I have been single for 7 years and I’m now ready for another opportunity to be happy.  It seems that these women these days want to say they want a Goodman, but will get them and leave them for a bad one.

I’m always praying for a woman that will love me for me.  And really mean it.  Patients is hard, but I’m still waiting.

Father

I know what it means to not have a father in my life.  To grow-up and see many children without one, I feel there pain.  But, not having a father doesn’t mean you will not grow-up a strong man.  I was raised by nothing but women from my family.  I learned how to clean, cook, take care a woman, and nurture children.  When I finally had my own son, I knew what to do.  The first look at him when he was born, I knew Ill be in his life til the end of my time on earth.  There’s nothing i won’t do for him.  When there is the time to discipline him, its hard to see him cry or get angry. But, he knows its for his own good and its from love.  Being hard, firm, and tough to a young boy isn’t a bad thing.  When you put in the love, kind, and a warm heart into it, its what the child cherish most.  With that said, Ill leave with this poem, its a late fathers day gift from me to you.  And to the good fathers out there, keep up the great work and cherish every moment with you children.

 

Over the years
As we grow old,
We remember our father
So brave and bold.

In the garden,
Leaning on the plow,
He would listen to me;
I see him now.

He would give advice
And understand;
He was always there
To lend a hand.

God made fathers
Strong and firm,
For he knew our lives
Would have great concerns.

So he gave us fathers
To teach us to pray,
And guide our lives,
And show us the way.

So on his day
Let’s take the time
To say “Thanks, dad.
I’m glad you’re mine.”

Brother

Today was an bad day for me.  I recently lost my best friend in October last year.  We did everything together and experienced all of the experiences that two men could.  From high school to adulthood, we been through a lot.  He was the type of person that will do anything for you.  During high school, he was shy and timid. But, hanging around me, made him come out of his shell.  Nothing could tear us apart.

When it came up for being in relationships with woman, was a whole new ball game.  We had women that would try to tear us apart or even try getting us to fight one another.  But, we showed them that they will fail miserably.  He was there for me when i was in trouble, in the hospital, and in frustration with my girl-friend.  He was the only person that could calm me down when i was angry.  He was the type of man that anyone would get along with. When i had my son, i made him godfather.  He treated him like his own and my son adored him.

With him gone, i feel lost.  An empty spot in my heart no longer filled.  I will miss him terribly.  It’s hard to do the things that i like to do, because we used to do things together.  Such as, play video games, play pool, go out to play basketball, and spend time with family and friends.  Sometimes i feel him over my shoulder and telling me its going be alright.  But, knowing i can’t speak to him again, makes the feel worse.

All i can do now, is try to move-on and push for the future that God has planned for me.  I will always cherish our friendship and brotherhood we shared.  A person gone, but never forgotten.

A disease that’s not comon in the world today.

Hirschsprung’s (HIRSH-sproongz) disease is a condition that affects the large intestine (colon) and causes problems with passing stool. Hirschsprung’s disease is present when a baby is born (congenital) and results from missing nerve cells in the muscles of part or all of the baby’s colon.

A newborn who has Hirschsprung’s disease is usually unable to have a bowel movement in the first days after birth. In mild cases, the condition might not be detected until later in childhood.

Hirschsprung’s disease is treated with surgery to bypass or remove the diseased part of the colon.

I have been fighting with this my whole life.  With the result of 10 operations and an life time colostomy bag, its far from easy to live my life as an normal person.  My self-esteem and confidence has dropped and I really get uncomfortable around people.  Sometimes i wish i didn’t have it, but its what god made me to have. I suffer with chronic pain and i’m also on pain meds all the time.

I do thank god that i have people in my life, like family, friends, and co-workers that dosen’t treat me like an outcast.  Living with this disease is not easy to cope with, but i try real hard to keep an positive attitude and move forward everyday.

There’s not a lot of people that knows about this disease, i just want to share to those who don’t know of it and to tell other people that, just because you have this or an colostomy bag, doesn’t mean that your life has to go on hold.